Hey all!

Just got back from College Camp 09.

Am really tired. This morning, I went to sleep with back-aches and woke up with knee pains.

Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! It is still hurting now. I feel so old. A young person like me should not have back-aches and knee pains!

Anyways, it's law classes tommorrow and I need to prepare.

I had a great fun time at camp!

Was the assistant games group leader for CIA and we got 4th placing out of 12 teams! Yay!

Well, camp's over for now and it's back to life. I've got loads to do.

It was a great time of refreshing and reflection at camp. (no not that it was quiet but it was a good time away from everything else la)

So, I'm starting my Japanese Intermediate 2 classes this coming wed and Skytrex is up this Sat!

Until then, toodles!

busy thinking...

I've been thinking of taking the JLPT exams-

The Nihongo Nouryoku Shiken, or Japanese Language Proficiency Test (JLPT), is a widely-recognized test certifying the taker's Japanese language ability.

Should I? I want to! Yes, I've been attending Japanese language classes for the past one month at ICLS, InterCultural Language School at Damansara Uptown. And it's been awesome!!

I mean, eventhough classes can be tiring and mentally draining at times, (probably cause its 4 hours of hard concentration work, speaking and application skills.) its actually enjoyable and interesting. And I find myself wanting to learn more about the language and the culture.

My course was an intensive one that covers 3 levels -Beginners 1, Beginners 2 and Intermediate 1 which I did in 25 days (5 weeks). Well, thats all over now that I just graduated on friday with a pretty cert that came with a grade A. yay!!!

I'm hoping my dad lets me continue with Intermediate 2. My plan is to study for the JLPT in December. Taking Level 4 JLPT means I would have to learn 100 kanji characters though.

Funny that I am learning chinese characters thought Japanese! But oh well!

Btw I am taking Mandarin classes too at ILCS. But it's pretty boring. :( Why isn't mandarin interesting? hmmmph

College starts next week! I'm actually looking forward to Japanese classes more than law classes!

aha!

Anyhow, it feels great being able to study. At least I won't feel so dumb anymore.

Here's a great link to help with JLPT preparations :

Preparing for theJapanese Language Proficiency Test

Today was not funny

I was on my way to 1utama to catch GI Joe when all of a sudden, without any warning, the slight pain in my tummy turned into excruciating agony. I cursed the pain and told it to go away. But to no avail, since I ended up in the public toilet.

I was in utmost confusion prior to having my period, and could not bring myself to fathom what was going on. First the knots in my tummy decided to tighten up impromptu and kill me. But at the same time, I felt a strong urge to release my bowels. So I did, but the shit didn't want to come out! Grrr. But at the same time, I suddenly had a sick feeling in my gut and wanted to vomit. And the cramp only fought harder to compete for my attention.

That was it, I couldn't numb myself and try to act strong anymore. In the throes of nearing-death, I let out a cry of distress. What kind of person can handle stomach cramps, constipation, dehydration, and the sick vomit-ty feeling at the same time?

All I could think of was myself at that time. All I wanted to do was to go home, eventhough my mom already bought us tickets for the movie. I coudn't care lest with the abominable pain nagging in me.

At that fleeting moment...

I thought how horrible labour pain was and that I didn't want to put myself through all that.

I wondered how wounded soldiers at war could care for the lives of their fellow comrades when they themselves are in agonizing pain.

I wondered if high-powered CEO women had to take leave when the suffer severe cramps, and miss important business meetings.

And I foolishly thought death would be an easy way out.

The things you think about when you're in pain...

I cried out to God to pause whatever pain or shit or vomit that was going to come out until I got home. Thank you God!

Mom was of great aid despite my loud wailing- giving me a heated-pillow, painkillers and warm water. The heat from the thick padding numbed the cramps. At ease, I closed my eyes and sat on the toilet until I almost fell asleep. (Yes, that's how long I sat there!)

What a horribly horrible episode of my life! It's the first time this has happened. I don't usually get severe cramps, just slight ones that I ignore until it subsidizes. I learnt a new word today: Dysmenorrhea- painful menstruation. I never thought it would happen to me cause my usual symtoms are lethargy and crying spells. ( better to be emotionally affected than to have severe physical pains!)

Why am I blogging about this? Well, this is a pivotal experience in my bloody life. I realise how ignorant I am to my own body; I know so little about how my hormones or my lifestyle can affect my body when its that time of the month. Most girls usually just accept it as it comes and goes.

But I've decided, enough is enough! I am going to look after my body and make sure I eat the right things so that in the next 28 days, there will be no PMS symtoms to take charge of my body. I will not let some severe cramp ruin my day! I am going to fight against the mentality of passively accepting cirmcumstances I should never accept. ( no of course I'm going to bleed, but I'm going to control the symtoms that come before and during the bleeding.)

Women should empower themselves with the right knowlegde and attitude to free themselves of this bondage.

Haha.

So begins my war with PMS.

I will make sure I win!