New Start

I come to the altar with no Isaac to bring
Just the desire to be loved and the hope for a ring
I've waited, I've worried, and I have failed to trust
So take from me this desire and teach me as You must
All alone before You, my heart I spill
With laughter and tears this empty vessel fill
I am looking, Lord, no longer for a man
But now to You, and what You have planned
I am gifted and growing and I want to serve You
Just show me where to go and who to serve as I seek to follow through
And if alone You want me,for years to come
Isolate and teach me what is to be done
I can't fight You any longer,I am too weak
I am done with fool's gold and real tresure I seek
I want You,O Lord, to put a twinkle in my eye
I want You to be my focus and not any other guy
But even as I say this, part of me holds back
Help me to see that singleness is a blessing and not an attack
Lord,help me not to feel worthless, unblessed, and alone
Help me to throw my cares at the foot of Your throne
As You want me to wait, Lord, please put a hold on my heart
Help me not to give it away to someone who will tear it apart
As I lay my desire down at Your feet
Help me to be honest and my promises keep
Help me in loneliness to focus on the Cross
And when I feel left out, help me to count it as loss
I don't want to struggle; I am too tired to fight
Help me to keep on and do what is right
Remove from me this jeolousy and replace it with joy
Fill my thoughts with You, O Lord, instead of a boy
On the altar of sacrifice I place my desire
And I ask, Lord, right now that You'd burn it with fire
Please accept it, O Lord, for it is all I have to give
Help me to let go of this bondage and truly live
Take all of me, Lord, even when I am opposed
Help me to trust in You, the One who always knows
On my knees I fall, with tears on my face
And I ask, Lord, only that You'd meet me in this place
Altars are for bloodshed so, Lord, here's my heart
Take it from me now, and grant me a new start
~ Shannon Kubiak

Every one of us has had or will probably have moments when we are desperately in need of a new start. The author of 'God Called A Girl' wrote this when she was in a love dilemma. Shannon was desperately searching for a man's love during her college years that she forgot that she already had all the love she ever needed-a love that's eternal; a love so strong and so amazing that it never ceases to satisfy one's brokeness.
I think most of us would be able to relate to this poem-how sometimes we tend to plan our own lives and try to live out what we think is best for ourselves.But that's when we're asking God for the lesser of what He wants to give us.God has plans and dreams for us that goes beyond our imagination and expectations. And we need to realise that our humanly expectations will only lead to dissapointments in life.
Shannon placed high hopes on being wedded by the end of her college days; but when nothing of that sort came to pass, she realised that God had a different, bigger plan for her. " Don't fight the ways of God, for who can straighten out what He has made crooked?" (Ecclesiastes 7:13) So in the same way, we shouldn't argue with God about His plans for our lives but surrender it to Him completely in loving trust.