The Start of Beginnings

Its been three good weeks since I entered HELP College. Not that college life has actually started though. SO far, I only did 7 hours of college a week. And I just only got the required books for my course. And we have had zero assingments. TAlk about an easy college life.

But anyway, that was just the first three weeks. As of next week, I will be doing 17.5 hours of computing princuples, study skills, finite maths and intermediate english; excluding assignment time and workload. (Yes, in study skills we STUDY HOW TO STUDY!!!!)

How smart can you get, right?

My, sometimes thinking about it scares me. I read through my computer concepts book and I don't even know what I'm supposed to remember or look for. Honestly, I think that computing will be my worst subject. I can picture this semester's headlines: COMPUTING KILLS UN-TECHNO-SAVVY GIRL

God, I need a miracle. It doesn't help that my lecturer talks to himself all the time. In a really monotonous voice somemore. Apala, how are we suppose to listen to perpetually boring gibberish in a flat tone? But then, I guess I'll have to give him the benefit of a doubt, being a new lecturer on campus.

So far, I've hoped form group G to E. And sat in on A's study Skills once. The class has 10 boys and out of the number of males,6 are international students- 5 africans and one poor iran doode.
If you ask me, they should have placed them in pairs in different classes.That way, there won't be an international student group. I so wanted a korean in my class!!! Ironic that the people in E thought I was a korean international student!!!

The people I met are funny,simple, down-to-earth people. Nope, I haven't met any conniving evil back-stabbing friends! Nor have I met really inspirational people. Not yet la. But I really hope and pray I meet the right people in college; friends who will be there by your side, cheering you on in your daily pursuits and supporting you during your sad and refining moments; people whom I can share tears of joy and laughter with.

You know, it's been a breeze. But I'm beginning to ask myself what role exactly does GOd have for me here. I mean, are we not suppose to be the salt that enchances the taste of a dish and make all the difference in a person's appetitite? Are we not meant to be the light that pierces through the dim dark lies of this world?

whoa. that's big. and it's just so hard to see it take place where I am right now. sigh, God won't you help me?

College can be a pretty scary place if you ask me. Well, I guess every place you're in for a specific time can be. It all depends on the choices you make in life. Change happens. And you can;t fight that. I'm glad that there's change. I mean, without change, there is no growth, no joy, no hope. There is no life without change.

But change can be a risky and scary thing. That is, if you perceive change in a foolish or ignorant way, then you might just end up making the wrong choices in life. ANd instead of being moulded into your best potential, you end up being rusty and tainted- a bigger mess.

If ever we need to change, then let it be for the better, not for worse.

College is indeed the start of a different beggining, and of many more begginings to come.